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Wednesday, June 30, 2010- I want to start my post, telling everyone that I have been in the wrong course for 2 years.
Well, think about it. Imagine yourself not liking your course at the first place, and you're forced by everyone around you to be in that course or you will face the consequences. And just add up the fact that you've been putting a lot of effort just to do well in it, but end up with very below average grade. And just add the fact that you have to lie to yourself for another 1 and a half year after lying to yourself for a couple of years already. And add the fact that you know that people are badmouthing you, though you did nothing to them.
Yeah, you know what I mean right? The reason why I was forced to enter the course is because it will provide me an average, secure and stable job in the mere future. And I will be getting a better pay if I were to further my studies. Awesome huh? No.
Think about it: Just look at my grades. Yes, its true that I will be given a secure and stable job, but I do not want an average pay, added to the fact that I do not want to be in the science industry. I approached a friend of mine who graduated with a Diploma certificate in the Biomedical field. Guess what? He's 26, and he's working with shipping goods to the country.
Damn, that kind of job? Kiss my ass, I'm not gonna be an average income earner, in what I do not enjoy doing.
So what's my plan? Since I would lose everything in the future if this carries on, then I would have nothing left. If I have nothing left, then I would have nothing to lose.
I want to do something more sensible. I've collected enough money to get in another course. One that I know I will do well in. One that I would enjoy without forcing myself. One that I would join not just because it will make my family happy, but will also make myself happy.
And yeah, theres also another thing to add here. The month of July will most probably me the month (if God permits, too), that my life will change. It'll be the start of me proving something to my family that I do not have to live being in the medical field just because its a stable job. Their expectations of me (or even life itself) will change to a new level. And hopefully, if this success continues, I'll be able to lead the life that I want. A life that I choose to live.
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