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Friday, December 26, 2008- Its officially Friday. Hmm, that means that for like, 3 days, I will not have enough sleep. That's awesome! lol, not.
- Subject selection (or something like that)
- Advance party with Pang ZY and other camp instructors. woo.
- Packing of bag for camp
- To army market
- MMA time :D
- Sleep time at 12 + am. Possibly 1am. -_-
Okay, today will be a little bit packed.
Sequence of events:
Okay.. lets see..
I've been farting a lot lately I don't know why, perhaps its too much fibre (lol, thats random).
Okay cut the crap. lol
School's starting on Monday, but I wont be attending it. Maybe after camp, I'll have my lunch and arrange for appointments with my lecturers. I seriously think that it will be a good choice.
School's at the afternoon for me on Tuesday, but I will be going to school in the morning to study. I'm studying forward so that I will be able to use a new tactic that I have. (:
But BAHH!! I'm gonna be an extra tired freak. I better reward myself soon after everything is clear. Eat Gym Sleep!! (But seriously, I feel like a lonerboy like this. heh, coz I do so many things that I like by myself. Who wana Eat Gym Sleep with me? Sounds wrong.)
heh. Wish all the best to me. I'm definitely going in hyper-no-rest mode.
*Its hard to live for everyone else more than yourself, definitely. But like it or not, I have to do it coz it will lead to how I want things to be...*
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Tuesday, December 23, 2008I had a personality test just now. It was part of my assignments for the "holidays" (Maybe even the prime minister is less busy than me during the holidays). tsk. Well, check it out
ENFJs are the benevolent 'pedagogues' of humanity. They have tremendous charisma by which many are drawn into their nurturant tutelage and/or grand schemes. Many ENFJs have tremendous power to manipulate others with their phenomenal interpersonal skills and unique salesmanship. But it's usually not meant as manipulation -- ENFJs generally believe in their dreams, and see themselves as helpers and enablers, which they usually are.
ENFJs are global learners. They see the big picture. The ENFJs focus is expansive. Some can juggle an amazing number of responsibilities or projects simultaneously. Many ENFJs have tremendous entrepreneurial ability.
ENFJs are, by definition, Js, with whom we associate organization and decisiveness. But they don't resemble the SJs or even the NTJs in organization of the environment nor occasional recalcitrance. ENFJs are organized in the arena of interpersonal affairs. Their offices may or may not be cluttered, but their conclusions (reached through feelings) about people and motives are drawn much more quickly and are more resilient than those of their NFP counterparts.
ENFJs know and appreciate people. Like most NFs, (and Feelers in general), they are apt to neglect themselves and their own needs for the needs of others. They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. ENFJs often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.
TRADEMARK: "The first shall be last"
This refers to the open-door policy of ENFJs. One ENFJ colleague always welcomes me into his office regardless of his own circumstances. If another person comes to the door, he allows them to interrupt our conversation with their need. While discussing that need, the phone rings and he stops to answer it. Others drop in with a 'quick question.' I finally get up, go to my office and use the call waiting feature on the telephone. When he hangs up, I have his undivided attention!
Somehow, more than 70% of the contents are the truth. The "trademark" part is definitely the 30% or less. I don't think thats true as for a trademark of that I have.
Hmm, I'm also trying to find new ways on how to make money. Recently, I thought of advertising myself as an abdominal workout trainer, coz somehow, I find myself to have more and more knowledge about it. But yeah, I have to make sure that I'm good enough so that I am more liable. I'm currently offering one more person to be trained at for free as an exchange to be a living proof for my effectiveness. Who shall it be... Hmm.. I'm really trying hard to find better ways to make money so that I will be able to help myself and others with the money and also be able to have extra time for my personal self and also for my studies and other commitments. Grr.
Hmm, yeah, guess thats all. Camp is on this coming Saturday. Assistant camp coordinator is stressed. Lmao.
*Start by being appreciative at least..*
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Saturday, December 20, 2008- Life is sort of getting more stable to me, little by little and I have to thank God and some people for it. I seriously learnt a lot of lessons for myself lately, even to those who find my comments pretty matured despite my child at heart behaviour at times to forget about my problems sometimes.
And it seems that the skills that you can learn are really unlimited no matter how much you have learnt - be it practical skills etc. or life skills.
I can't be more grateful for the priceless lessons that I have learnt in my life, and I hope that I will learn even more. Not to mention my spirit to move on. Why do I say this? Look at some other people and you can tell. People do not usually accept to learn or face a few challenges in life (before we can even say "many challenges in life") but I'm still kicking here. That's like pretty cool and so previleged of me to have the spirit to keep moving. lol.
Okay, enough we this crap. Lets move on. (wow, thats very anti-emotional-background-feeling-thingy)
Argh, I'm hungry now. Just went back home from supper with a few friends, and now I'm hungry again. Dang. But oh well, just me, the computer and a bottle of water and a bottle of chewing gums in front of me.
*Just stop giving me crap will you? Go flush it down for yourself or something.*
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Wednesday, December 17, 2008- Just went to Health Science Authority building just now with some members of TP Biomedical Science year 1 people. We went there to learn more about the blood bank. Its pretty much a nice place there.. Won't say much about it.
Hmm.. just a comment here that I wish to put down below..
Sometimes I am really disappointed of the way a lot of people are right now.
People started to think too much for themselves, but not others.
When a person starts to show how giving he can be, people don't believe it.
He tries harder, but people makes accusations that he intends to do something bad or is just being a hypocrite.
When he did even harder, people felt satisfied, but not satisfied enough. People asked for more.
When he did even more, people took him for granted.
When he did it with a lot of effort sincerely and with his own sweat, blood and tears, people still took it for granted and did not even spare a thought for him.
When he continues on to be giving, people still took it, but they got irritated with his face, his words, his presence.
He wants acceptance but people put him off as a nobody.
When he did a nice thing to a person who is feeling down, he was sweared at.
When he fought his own demons, people left him alone.
When he almost lost his mind, people made it worse for him.
When he suffered, people were to busy enjoying their lives.
When he begins to get up on his feet, noone encouraged him.
When people needs his help again, he felt disgusted, but he decided to people a chance.
When he gave people a chance, they began to take things for granted.
He began to suffer from people's selfishness; the selfless were the sufferers of the selfish.
He began to stop trusting everyone, except for himself and people who really earned it.
Hmm, I gtg now. I'll be blogging around soon again ya. Bye.
*Most of the times, I have to get up alone and yes, only by myself.*
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Sunday, December 14, 2008- Exams are over, but I'm still damn busy. Haha.
And from now on, going to the gym will be refered to as "training at the gym" coz I train there for quite an important purpose.
Hmm, everything was fine for the term test except for Maths. Its a big bitch. lol.
Actually, it was easy, but during the test itself, my head hurts, I started panting a lot, my ear started to hurt and I couldn't concentrate. I was frustrated, I tried to calm myself down so hard, but I did not make it. I did not do most of the questions in one hour. My effort for Maths term test paper has gone to waste. I remained unwell for a while, lost some balance and stuff. Got frustrated and punched the wall in the Lecture Theatre, the concrete part, not the cardboard part. A low and slightly loud "boom" sound filled the LT man. LOL. My hand felt a little numb afterwards but 3 min later, I can feel it again. But oh well, I gotta learn to study smart more now, not too much of studying hard..
Well, I went training at the gym today. Body hurts a little here.
And you know what? I've planned that in 2 weeks, I'm regaining back my 8 pack! woo.
And after that, I'll have a nicer 8 pack. LOL.
I really wonder I want it so much, its not like we guys will be walking in the public half-naked or something. Hmm, that leads to this.. I wonder why guys care so much about why we guys care about how long and big our "strudel" should be when we aren't walking without our pants on. LOL.
Okay, stop crapping now. I gtg. bye
*Tomorrow shall be a new day*
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Tuesday, December 9, 2008- Well hey,
I finished my first paper today. And check this post out.
Today, I've been reflecting about how far I have went and rose from situations which are part of me growing up.
I still remembered the time how I was in primary school; soft hearted, naive, afraid but intelligent.
I still remembered myself being bullied back then, and I still remember when I alone sat in the hall during recess feeling sad and all the craps. I remembered when I cried alone, not showing anyone about it. And I still remembered why I do not want to fight back the people who bullied me - I did not want to hurt them. I was afraid to hurt them, knowing how violent and how much I can do with violence. I told myself "No, its not supposed to be this way. Let them be, at least they're not hurt."
Seemed like my mindset is pretty good sometimes, but actually, it ain't. I never learnt to stand up for myself - it was always about another person. There was no me, never one.
I remembered when I told my parents about myself getting bullied. Want to know what happened? I remembered that they did nothing, I only remembered them telling me to stand up on my own two feet.
And I remembered that I finally did that twice. Only twice out of multiple times for 3 years.
Haha, I guess that I was very firm about the fact that I did not want to hurt anyone.
I also remembered the days when I was mocked at a lot of time, back in lower secondary school. Seemed like almost nobody really believed in me. What I do seemed like nonsense although it was all good intentions. My dreams were made fun of, just because they seemed impossible, but they aren't. I just believed in myself more than they do to themselves. And I remembered that I do not look forward to go to school at all. I did not care at all if I will miss out in my studies. And there was only one person whom I really turned to - myself. Despite all the grudges that I have to a lot of people, there was one thing in my mind - I care for them, and I do not want anyone else to face such things that I did, or worse. Sacrifices that I made things worse, 'coz people started to use me. I found out where I was wrong. Sometimes, people have to go through situations to be more matured and make better decisions. I guess I went through a lot of them and I learnt to make better decisions and become more matured - even though I did not wish to show anyone about this.
I learnt that it is time that I make an impact in a lot of people's life for the better and help them learn to be better people too. I learnt to help myself, even if I have to stand on my own feet.
And yes of course, I am a cancer survivor and I have to admit that I have went through it bravely. I did not back down, no matter how far I know the consequences of me living on is.
God gave me a life, and another chance to live again, and together with the lessons taught to me, I want to contribute as a person who will make an impact to the society and even the world next time.
*Its part of being me, like it or not.*
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Sunday, December 7, 2008- Hmm life is kinda stressful lately
And term test is just 2 days away. Yep, you're right, Tuesday.. This freakin' coming Tuesday!
Almost finished revising all my subjects. Hmm, seemed like I'm early, but nahh...
I should have finished revising yesterday or two days ago!
Well, lemme see what I can type as an update...:
FRIDAY!!!
School ended, and was not feeling well. So, just sat around outside the street soccer court while some of my friends played. Of course, at the same time, I was waiting for MMA training.
And you know what happened during MMA training? The highlight of the night was this...
Well, firstly the people above 17 and below 17 were separated.
And me, being 17 years and how many days and months old went to the "above 17 area*.
Then, we were asked to form a circle. And then we were briefed that each time, two people will be in the ring and the objective is to bring the other person down on the floor. The winner stays, the loser goes into the circle, and a person from the circle continues to take on the winner. It goes on and on.
And you know what?? When it was my turn, I had to take on someone TWICE my size.
Before I went in, that guy owned some others in under one minute seh. And I was kinda nervous. Sommore, he's pretty experienced. But between the both of us, it ended after 2 minutes plus. I lost. LOL. But it was kinda fun. We attempted to put each other on the ground so hard; until theres twice where I tried to lift the person up but to no avail, coz he grappled on my neck. Yes, ouch. haha. And theres two or three times where he half pushed, half throwed me away, but I managed to balance and land on my feet. Lol. Maybe its tyco, iono. Then the final attempt was so called the end. We grappled on each other, slammed each other at the same time, and he ended on top of me. LOL. I lost. But that was one experience!
YESTERDAY!!!
Went to the gym before wanting to study.
I was training yesterday, and theres this 30 year old guy who is so-called my fren ah.
He told me that there's a bodybuilding competition this month, and I told him I know la, coz my friend Suhaimi told me some months ago that he wants to be in it. Then, he asked me to try and go for it. I was like shocked man. LOL.
I was like "I so small, for what sehh".
He responded "Join the Juniors one la. They don't count your body size, they look at your muscles".
And I replied "Don't want ah.. I not into bodybuilding ah.. I just like fighting as a sport and I also like to keep in shape and keep fit. heeeeheee"
Yep, trust me, I don't wana be a bodybuilder, though some might find it cool to be one.
TODAY!!!
Today was like nothing happened. Just stayed at home all the way. Haha. And you know something? You're bothering me. I wana study la! LOL.
haha, okay people, thanks for reading. Bye.
*Gonna show 'em what I'm all about.*
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