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Thursday, November 29, 2007- oh oh. today was kinda stupid again. I cant go to the gym la! grr!.
early in the morning go to Immigration of Custom Authority (ICA) at lavender to extend my passport due. then, after that, go to army market and other places to buy shirts. like power la.
Dad and Mum followed around. wow. and going back home, that got angry. again. aiyo. once again, all because of the spoilt brat. I seriously felt like talking to Dad one to one, but i dont think he will take wad i say seriously la. neither will my family. Like please, they care more about what they say, when my suggestions and choices are way more matured and better than them, even though im the youngest. Respect. thats wad i need frm them. BASIC respect. oh yea, dont even talk about the "outside my family" people. See how many take what i say seriously. or even how i feel la. GRR.
then during lunch at home, no mood to talk. Pissed with family. lol. when they ask me questions,
i either give one word or one phrase answer. I only asked a short question to them.
Then, idle around in bed. keep thinking about other problems la. and finding ways to solve them.
Wow. i really need to exercise to release my stress LA!! urgh! maybe, saturday late afternoon or sunday, we shall see.
tomorrow, going to Johor to make a nerd- non thick specs. im gonna look old. Uncle Rahimi indeed. wah seh. guess wad time i have to set off? 6.30 am!! woo! good luck have fun have a nice day.
and i feel like telling this to someone one day.. "Why do u fail to do so? Its either ur stupid, or ur not hard working enough. Wait a minute, I find u hardworking though.. ok, ur working hard enough." LOL. u noe what that means rite? UR STUPID!! thats out of the line. not gonna say the "ur stupid" part.
haiya, oh well, gtg now.
* i know, im just another person. hah. i will have to leave one day. When things are back to where it is, i will not appear much. i could be on my own.. *
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Wednesday, November 28, 2007- well. today, family is coming back at late night. i have to like, clear the mess up in my house. guess what? midnight just now, killed two cockroaches. WOO! die!! die!! u shud have been a cat or dog or something and i wont kill you. sorry. its nothing personal.
oh yea, after some long days of being busy, im finally able to go to gym tomorrow.
i finished my pizzas today! lol very early finish. then, ate nasi lemak that i bought. sian.
can my family just bring back nice food for me? i will appreciate that. thank you.
i spent my time today being a computer potato couch guy. seriously. dint move around much. excpt for going to the market in the morning. well. you guys and gals like my new songs on the blog? "elmo u can drive my car...and baby i love u.." LOL. super cute song. just like me. NOT. i mean.. the songs not cute. IM CUTE. 100% adorable 0% ugly. WOW. go me.
well, tomorrows gonna be a long day. gonna go prepare stuffs and EXTEND PASSPORT DUE DATE! and before that, the gym!!
*JUST a part of me i can't bear to lose*
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Tuesday, November 27, 2007- today was nothing much for a day. i just want to stay at home alone this time. granted permission. lol. then, i dono how to turn on the cooking gas (mum turned it off). so, i cant cook at home. solution? i bought pizzas. ahh. i think im simply going to the market tml to buy stuffs to drink and eat. well, back at home.. just relaxed.
oh yea. family coming back either late tml or the day after tml. how cool can they get. oh yea. things are getting kinda plain. oh well. i think i go off now la. its so boring out here. wish someone can spend his/her time with me on msn. haiya.
*this is my last meaning of happiness. i will have to agree with it now.*
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Monday, November 26, 2007- WOW!! i got PS-ed and deserted by my family!! LOL. at malaysia, passport kena rejected coz due was too near. so, my family go KL without me! kena rejected at johor checkpoint there. haha. u noe how i go back to singapore? i like, WALKED on the bridge from johor to singapore. HAH. was midnight and traffic jam. so, no choice lor. walk oso walk. then, when i reach singapore checkpoint, go "chop" the passport. lol, the police officer who checked my passport is a malay woman. and shes PURTY!!!(pretty) LOL. still remembered.. this happened that time.
pretty sergeant: Good evening
me: Are u married? u have a boyfren??! can i have ur number? ur haawwtt!! (drooling)
NAH!
of course that dint happen la. dint drool either. i was like.. shes pretty ok wadever im sleepy.i wad actually happened is that i just giv passport, she asked y i come back say kena rejected coz due lor!! so that happen and i passed by the end. LOL. serious.
then go and take taxi. i outsmarted all the others hu wana take taxi. they all gather at taxi stand for what sia? i just go some 80m away before the taxi stand and tahan taxi, go grandma house. hah.
reach grandma house, call mum. i was like emptying my stomach for satay la.
then i asked sarcastically "nice or not the satay?" hah!
next day, want go home. but i still sleeping at grandma house. guess wad? mum dint pack my pants in the bag!!! they left with my pants!!
i cursed. and cursed. lol. no choice lor, wear the shorts i wear yesterday and go home. bathed 2 times. then changed clothes. i power la. haha
oh well. gona go out! tata.
*the ncos who talked with me in NP room that day. remember ur quote about leading your followers.*
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Saturday, November 24, 2007- I am a busy man. Just now, go discuss with the NCOs about the problems they are having and help them find solutions. U noe wad? It aint easy doing this, especially when u cant come back.
However though, i still have some trust at them. I know that they have a lot of problems, but i noe they'll make it.
Now, lets talk about my life.
Lately, i have been very busy. Especially with typing documents. I slept at 2am just now. believe? I damn power seh. And just now didnt eat a lot la. I just want to eat eat eat eat eat, exercise a lot and be super fit! lol. I wana release all my signs of sadness. I wana be someone motivated to learn and be a great person. Great ambition i have. But its pretty hard not to be sad la.
ahah. so what? I just wana to serve my purpose in life. thats good enough.
Oh well, to KL i go tml. aiyo. im gonna be a busy man.
*is there a person to believe in me as much as i need it.*
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Friday, November 23, 2007- wow. im officially going to KL. will be going at sunday night. Nisa, im sorry cant go for ur concert ah. very remourseful seh..
hmm, im doing a lot of typing work lately. Well, i enjoy it. Quite, although its tiring to think of what to type out. especially for some lesson plans i needa make. Dint go for open house just now. dad dont allow. But i'll be going tomorrow.
Simply saying now. I finally know how to kick people with a lot of force!! woot!! haha. im a noobie. Last time, when i try to kick hard, my leg will pain. Then, keep training leg and practice kicking the air. LOL im crazy noe. But finally la. I can finally do what i can to stop bullies and bad bad people frm doing bad bad things. notty ppl. haha.
Oh yea, december will be an extremely busy month. i will be facing through a total of 16 days of camp. lol. its THAT cool. just some personal self-developing discovery camp. haha.
*Its more than an act of being selfless. I have owed my life, and I'm serving with it now.
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Thursday, November 22, 2007- woah! today was tiring. it was full of getting to know people and all. Went to accompany Zhuang yi at HTA. So called "accompany" la. then, sit down, and saw my wife! haha. zhuang yi will noe wad i mean. actually not wife la. just some maam frm HTA. LOL. get to know some people too.
Haiya. I think that I'll be busy these days. I still do not know whether i'll be following my family to Kuala Lumpur or not on sunday. Power. Think I should stay in Singapore la. I have a lot of tasks to do. I'm a busy man. And i have to go for Yishun Town Sec Open house tml and sat. lol.
Im tired la. aiyoyo.
*zzzzZZZzZzZzZzzzzzZZZ sleep, rahimi, sleep!*
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Tuesday, November 20, 2007- came back frm chalet. yesterday, oni eat, swim and stuff.
After swimming, dono what to do. Like serious la. Others are busy with their own stuffs. So what to do? i just go to the shop and buy bubbles lor. Serious. Thats how hard it is for me. What to expect, sit at one area and keep quiet? can. But later they say i emo or whatever. like plz la. What to do seh. After blowing bubbles around, go arcade to clear my mind. Was sort of angry of my problems..
Was stupid too. Alone there. Play like one pathetic person.
Then, when go home, say bye to others la. and they were so quiet. Like what??!
bye oso dont respond? like wth la. Like i still remember last nite can. SOMEONE bumped into me by accident and asked me to go to hell. Like, go and F ur dog la! wth la.
Like, i dont want to show my temper there can? dont want spoil their mood.
At least im being selfless. not like some others.
Then go home. Sister is like wtf la. Dont even clean up her mess. And mum is like shouting across and stuffs. im sick of it la. Can they at least give me a break?
Can someone at least care? Sick la. You think fun is it, trying to be a good person when people JUST piss u off.
and got more la!! masdiyanah knows why. pissed la.
*this isnt helping me at all. i really need help here.*
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Sunday, November 18, 2007- Today is simply tiring yet sickening. I have to do like, quite some work here, and i have to take care of a SPOILT BRAT!
simple saying, this makes me sick. lol. I havent been exercising a lot lately. Simply meaning that stress is piling up. And please la. A lot of problems are piling up on my mind. I dont blame stress for messing with my mind. Serious, i miss doing jobs which needs a lot of responsibility.
But, all these days, a lot of things are simply pissing me off. I seriously dont like the way my dad scolded my mum, and its all the spoilt brat's fault. yea yea. hes just a small kid. but his attitude sux like a freaking male whore. oops dont mind my language. bloody hell. the brat scolded my grandma last time, and people are just restricting me from teaching him a lesson la.
like please man, y cant people stop looking down on me? Its OKAY if they just leave me to being a loner, but i really cant stand being treated like trash la. Do u know that its sickening? S-I-C-K-E-N-I-N-G! oh yea. i mean it.
And wana noe the best part? Its not that im addicted to the computer or anything. Its just that i need to depend on doing things which keeps my mind filled so that i can forget about all the nonsense that are given to me. Not challenges, but NONSENSE. And they go on insulting me about my dependence with computer. Like look at urselves la! Please la. look at yourselves first, simply reflect on what wrong you do first before you even look at me can?
And.. haiya.. today. Theres just something which spoiled my spirit today.. I just don't wana talk about it. Only God and I know.. so far..
*all i want, is a little piece of heaven.*
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- Wow. I've been very busy lately. Have to keep typing stuffs on microsoft word. DAMN!
heh. sori for not posting much lately.
and yea, tomorrow is chalet time. I seriously don't know if I am gonna enjoy it or not.
Im still chiong-ing at my work. Type type type type type. like wow.
And last time, my mum would always complain that even the president isnt as busy as I am.
Like.. WOW mum!!
Well. maybe I'll be posting some more things later. chao!
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Wednesday, November 14, 2007- Oh no. I discovered something. MONDAY IS MY CLASS CHALET!!
lol. nothing much to be panicking about. its not like, i must walk around with sun tan lotion to make my body look toned walk around in the pool half-naked, expecting girls (or gays) to be running for me. if gays ah, i'll run away. like duh. lol.
Speaking of gay, and class chalet, im afraid that my horny frens will treat me like a slut again. lol. dont mind the word "slut", thats wad some call me, i still cant figure out y.
And i really wonder what will happen on that day. lol.
Guess i have to see then..
*and i do all those things for a reason. i really mean it. i swear it.*
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Tuesday, November 13, 2007- from now on, i will do physical training to myself. Carry bag loading 15kg, and go up and down stairs and do sets of exercise every half story i go down. Tortured my leg. went to my limits. pants almost tear. LOL. will never do squats with the weight on my bag with THAT pants again. i sweated like hell. when i go back home, my knees are feeling loose. my legs trembled for some minutes there. I wanted to give up when i was doing the exercise. "My body went screaming at me to stop, but my soul just said NEVER!!" that was the war going on inside myself.
It really taught me something. Even if my legs cant carry me anymore, if i have the determination, i have a higher chance to still strike back. I know that im quite a weak person, with sicknesses hiding behind me. but oh, what crap. If you know me good enough, i always want to fight back with these. (eg. i go to gym to help reduce chest pains. i also run to do so.)
to me, whatever your environment is ( even if it causes u to fail), whatever kind of family u have, (like mine, being financially unstable), whatever it is, u can always fight back. When i say fighting back, its not about violence, and im not saying that fighting back will make u win in the end. it doesnt mean so. Fighting back still means that ur not giving up at all. It shows that you still want what you want so badly, you'll go beyond ur own stakes just for that freakin' thing. Oh well. life experiences. I fought back, but i lost a number of times. ah, its normal. at least i dont give up.
now, back to me. I think that the more i torture myself with fatigue, the better i get after i have given myself time after that. I think that after I have moved on, on my own back, I have seriously got out of my mind. I really felt for a little while that i have nothing to lose in this life, excpt my own life. I have endured through days, weeks, months, years of pain mostly on my own. Im still facing that. And i noe, im still facing my fear of being alone. I have not overcome it, although im much of a loner. But oh well, I dont think many people whom have gone through what i've gone through have survived it without going to the institute of mental health or unlike me, being helped by frens and family who will always stay by their side or attempting suicide.
I still live. and I noe i do. I stand up, although i know that theres marks scaring and damaging my own mind. But i still want to fight back.
*can you not die? argh dont think about it.*
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Monday, November 12, 2007- oh yea! hotel waiter job. waiting for the employer to call me for a training, and i will be handling trays, and food, and drinks all on my hands. Good thing for me, being a waiter at Reagent Hotel
So cool. So cool. Ridhwan and Afiq become door man and bell boy respectively.
So relieved. I can put less burden on my parents' shoulders. I can help them too, perhaps.
sounds kinda professional, and i can improve carrying loads of these stuffs on my hand.
After the thingy, the six of us, Ridhwan, Akmal, Afiq, Zahiruddin, Ihsan, and yours truly, go and play at LAN shop. Hey Hey Hey! look whos the pro around here! *doing a pose, pointing to me*
heh. so ACTION. gundu babi! erm. im no babi. damn!
then, we walked around (boring) and finally go to Yishun for second round of LAN gaming. LOL.
haiya. at yishun MRT, i cant breathe properly again. I don't know why, but it seems that im a lil weaker. Some pain at chest area. The good thing is, i kept calm. I dont want to panic around and cause others to panic, and the others to cause the others to panic, making Singapore panic causing ASEAN to panic, making Asia panic, AND MAKING THE WHOLE FREAKING WORLD PANIC!! ok thats stupid. but yea, i just kept calm, dont want to trouble others much. What you want me to do? faint and end up in hospital? If u wish so, Go To Hell, cause i do not wanna. In your face!
after the whole thing, go home, rest, wash up, sleep, wake up, blog!
She died in a comma for so long. Accepted it. I finally do. My life has to go on.. for as long as i live here. Its sad, but its still something which has to be accepted.
*oh well, well, well! At least I have nothing to lose! yea, i can stand by my own side! I dont want to say : (I Excel at Quiting Early, and "[F]oxtrot-[U]niform-[C]harlie-[K]ilo-[ING]" up my life!)
This is who I am, I have made my weakness, and im not gonna make anymore again. got it?!*
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Sunday, November 11, 2007- and so, sunday has come.
seems like the npcc sec 3s and 2s are back.
dammit, im jealous. i cant go for camp. dammit. dam dam dammit! lol.
oh yea, woke up today, and the first thing i did was to check out if i have any muscle aches going on. and yea! it did! lol. abdominal sides and the thing it self hurts. im so darn stubborn. still did 2 sets of exercises which are far more torturing then crunches itself. lol. am gonna do that again! lol. pretty fun.
oh yea, was damn bored today. nearly nothing to do la. tml, going for job interview at reagent hotel. oh rite!! wish me the best eh. thinking of having 2 part time jobs.. but dono la. see how Akmal want or not.
I did a lot of waiting today. damn lot of waiting..
*i hope that ur okay today..*
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Saturday, November 10, 2007- went out to gym today.
every1 was late, but i was the earliest. im the earliest by 1 hour and 30 min. cool eh?
so, 30 min i went back home to play com. and 1 hour, i spent time going to the gym first.
1 hour passed, and i no mood ordy la. went towards my house. then saw Ridhwan walking to the gym. LOL. wth. then i just go back to gym lor! met up with Akmal outside stadium.
so, we started working out. For me, again. haha, the both of them were feeling so lost in the gym.
And what i did was to show them around. teach them stuffs and stuffs.
Oh yea, do you know this exercise called the captain's chair? dono, check out la.
The both of them were like using it quite a lot. For your information, its pretty good to use it as an abdominal exercise. Check it out (if u wana).
As usual, did weights. Definitely la, its the most tiring and addictive part. Thats why its cool. haha. Then, 30 min later, Suhaimi frm 4t8 came. wow. hes damn cool. he taught me one cool workout. its so damn COOL. lol.
After that go home the end.
hehe.
then at home, tired la! duh. duh. duh.
and guess wad? i was in the gym for 2 + hours! all this just as an effort to clear my thoughts.
but it failed. haiya.
*honestly, ive kept thinking abt those times again. ive felt much regret of ur absence.*
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Friday, November 9, 2007- went back home some hours ago. went to toa payoh for job. wah. and that place is like what the hell la. u work at cold storage or NTUC fair price, become promoter, casher or retail assistant for only $4.50 per hour. and guess wad? u have to work there for 3 months. i backed out when i heard that. its a nono for me. na-ah. not ever. I might as well go for other jobs that is more fun to me, and earn more. I cant believe one of my 2 frens accepted it. i think he just wants a job so much. oh well. good luck to him to.
oh yea, going to gym tomorrow with friends. finally. again. they are finally tagging along with me. im stating this once again. lol. oh yea, 2 more weeks. half makeover. wow. lol.
wow. just a good timing to blog and listen to "menerima kau pergi" (meaning accepting that you left in malay. in a sad way. lol.) erm by the way, im not a lover ("jiwang") boy! lol.
yea, wad a good timing. dammit. now the npcc people left for pulau ubin. dammit. i feel quite alone now. this sucks. im trying to tahan frm lonely syndrome now. i just dint make it in time. i just didnt! im so frustrated, for god's sake. i guess, i just have to wait. haiya...
*lend me ur hand to get you up. and we're going to face all this together. can we..? i dont mind going through this alone. but i mind if u do.*
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Wednesday, November 7, 2007- woot! i forgot to say this. but i changed my skin.
dint want to go to gym in the morning. woke up at 11am. sleepy bum.
but i still exercised at home. im lucky to have my loyal 20kg barbell with me. Have been using it since sec 3. lol. Its like so called one of my few non electronic "toys". yea, i call it a toy, coz i enjoy using it like how a kid enjoys his or her toy la.
and yea, so on, i was dam bored, so went to play online game. wow. go rahimi. this is dumb.
Cool thing though, have POA lesson on friday. good thing i have a purpose to go out.
Oh yea, and on satuday, i will be going out to gym with some malay levelmates. They are FINALLY going to the gym. i bet they're blubber. lol. or skin and bones. ey, i noe i skinny, but at least im bones and muscles! hah.
Oh yea, a special dedication to my juniors in NPCC going to ATC camp, including the ncos.
Show some good standard out there. Impress the CIs and Officers there. AND I WANT SOME1 TO BE THE BEST CAMPER! actually at least 2. lol. high expectations for all of you. dont let me down.
*i continue to face all this again. the loner still fights on. without a company.*
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Tuesday, November 6, 2007- I am 99% free from O levels now. just left another 1 %. this 1% determines how good my grades will be for POA. oh well. but of course, people do need a break, right?
thats why.. I'm going to the gym tomorrow...AGAIN.
No, do not fear, people, for I am not addicted to the gym. Don't worry about that. I am not a gym freak. I am just a person who wants to keep fit and be fitter. And gain weight.
Surprisingly, I have not been training much in running. Not going to do it yet. Maybe I should start on December. Still not sure about it.
Speaking about plans, anybody have information on jobs where i can be a typer? Not admin, but just typing. I am pretty fast at it, have Expert typing level, able to type around 50 words a minute.
If have. PLEASE tell me. Thanks. lol.
*I have to stop all these.*
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Monday, November 5, 2007- i really hate it when im the cause of people's conflict.
and yea, too bad for me.. i am the cause of a conflict. dammit. When in my life can i stop being one?
am i a jynx? i wouldnt think much of it. i believe that im born an average, a little above average or a little bit below average. either one. But i dont think that i am not born being a curse towards people's feelings. their anger. their depression. I seriously do not want that to happen.
I want to do so much to stop all this mess. Maybe, it shud really be time for me to end this, with me facing its consequence. Should I? I don't mind losing so much. Being quite well known does not make me to have true friends. True right?
I really wonder, how much of a fool i am, always down here making an effort to do such things. Why must i be so caring towards others? Too caring, actually.
And, the best part is being called selfish, a problem/trouble maker, an egoistic bastard (when i have a father, check out the word bastard if u dont noe) and all these things when i cant even stand up for myself. What i can do, is to stand for others. Thats all? why not myself?
i kept letting myself lose to others whenever it comes to conflicts. Where is my limits? Do i have one? Does anyone care?
I really feel like it doesnt matter abt me. Like any1 thought abt it either. I just want someone to be genuinely kind to me. at least. It does not matter how much problems i have up here in my mind. really. I have been facing so much shits. I think that its common for me to struggle up anyway.
Oh dammit. Save me god.
*where is the person hu trusts me? where is the person hu cares? I just need someone to understand. Someone who would give me a chance to say what i really want to say."
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Sunday, November 4, 2007- wow, today went to the gym. Thats the only other place i was today, beside home.
U noe wad? i was only there for 1 h 30 min! its stupid. i went in, and suddenly tired.
felt like vomitting, but dont care, i just chiong-ed. And guess wad? stupid gym ppl oso.
dont use the bench, still put towel to put. fags. Dont even think about others hu wana use it. stupid. stupid. lol. wow, i seriously grew slightly fitter and heavier. gained 1 kg frm last week. lol. it means, im gonna go to 65 kg soon! God save me!
hmm, rite now studying Social Studies. Im soo damn cool with it. Im lucky that i can easily absorb general knowledge information. Thank god. wish me all the best rite? haha.
im so near to the end of the O levels. Come on!
*i need to stop struggling. i need to start pushing. i need some moral support..*
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Saturday, November 3, 2007- I have also got a good quote for followers, especially my npcc cadets.
He who has never learned to obey
cannot be a good commander.
-Aristotle
He who has learned how to obey will know how to command one day.
He who does not willl not even learn to make a good decision for himself, less even being a leader.
-myself, Rahimi
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oh yea, life is getting more and more challenging as days pass. i wonder how i am going to go on with my life. my days as a Yishun Town Secondary School student is long over.
It could be true that i dint make a great impact to ppl's life like how i want it to be.
I dont think theres even 1.
Aiyo. this is so stupid la. so stupid.
Ok, back to the present, i still am finding for a part time job. Lemme see, i am quite good at massaging, got waiter skills, got good looks(LOL as if.), agile, fast solution thinker. Wow. fast solution thinker. If i really am, I would have found a job right now!
Oh yea! i can mop the floor too!. hehe.
i sound so stupid. and pathetic. (but im smart and cool. wow. rite.)
Leadership: The art of getting someone else to do something you want done because he wants to do it.
Dwight D. Eisenhower
*Time passes by, each day, and each night. I've been waiting for my chance all the while but it was not time yet. There was the right time, but i wasnt good enough. And now, here i am, waiting for the right time again.*
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Thursday, November 1, 2007- i hope that you are not angry at me, even if i think you are. I hope that you wont really take it to heart, even if i think you are. i hope that things will be okay again.
i just want you to be happy again. I just want you to be fine again. i just want you to be, you, just you. seriously, when you are who u are, ur near perfect. ur more than a great person.
Im just afraid, that u will be a different person. U will be someone else.
Coz all the while, i appreciate u for who u are, not what you are. Im sorry for misunderstandings.
im sorry that you almost turned depressed
*yes, i will have nothing to lose if ur gone. Coz by then, i will lose at most everything*
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- haiz, misunderstandings have been happening between people. I am the cause. 2 people arent happy at all with this matter. And i know it. by the way, ms nurulain is seriously my godsis. we agreed with this for a long nong long nong time. Please, no misunderstandings please. both of u are good frens of mine, just dont want this to go on..
`updated on- 6:35 PM
- Okay, now there is this so called anonymous-wanna-be "cadet" on my tagboard, hu isnt much happy with what happens to NPCC. Okay, mr/miss/mrs/dr* Cadet, im not being angry or scolding you or anything. well, Cadet wants me to become a CI, which i wont probably be. Cadet has also said that he/she* isnt too happy about NPCC now, coz they have to like the NCOs. recently, when he/she put typed that he/she wants me to come back as CI, this is my reply
(*delete where applicable)
Rahimi: whether i become a CI or not, it doesnt matter much. what matters more is whether the CADETS become disciplined and better every training. yes, i have to agree that the NCOs too have to do( sorry dint type do there) their job well. if not, i would say, the end of NPCC, the start of a gay adventure club CCA, which calls themselves npcc. i seriously have no offence, nor i care if i have offended any1 here but im in fact, speaking the truth.
its not an opinion, its simply A FACT. accept it, or ur a sore loser. Seriously, i thought that as generations past, people are supposed to get better and better. Ironically, things get worse.
Once again, im reminding the readers, dont get angry, dont offend NPCC, dont get offended. From my friend's and my own view, the UGs are seriously deteriorating in terms of discipline, standard and much more important factors. Seeing cadets treating student leaders with not much respect, treating them like buddies and all different weird stuff keeps coming out.
Seriously, more people are talking instead of taking action. People are getting less and less fit. People are arguing more and more. Noone is stopping this. Noone is seeing this.
I hope that from this entry, all of u will realise, that a change must take place.
I cant only blame juniors for this, but NCOs too seriously have to take more action. Dont joke too much. Have a higher aim of standard for ur cadets. Always train them to be better than u.
This is a mistake i've seen from most generations even my own squad of ncos dont see it, excpt for me. I have regretted this. Dont regret it. I hope that all of u will learn, not use it for conflict terms, argue much with my "philosophy" or any other crappy possibilities.
I noe, that I probably wont come back, but this MAY be my last piece of say.
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