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Thursday, January 31, 2008- NOTICE!! The link, loner-idiot.blogspot.com is only temporary. I'm gonna change it to another one.
Okay, tomorrow is my birthday. Don't forget! LOL.
Hmm. After 17 years(-1 day) of life, i find that im one tough kick-ass idiot.
Coz failures after failures, i have not committed suicide. Thats good news.
Hah, guess wad? I think i kena food poisoning. felt like vomiting. And its pretty painful you see. Lets see if i can PASS SOME GAS! lol.
wow, its impressively irritating now. And I intended to do modified leg raise later. Wow Rahimi, lets see how you can do it. Lets just see. Tomorrow birthday, must not be sick!! If I can tahan more pain than a lot of people, i dont know how a single person can tahan this. And do what im doing, laugh at myself for having food poisoning. lol.
know what? time is passing by, but gas frm my butt is hardly passing OUT. lol.
oh well, theres no gas at my butt i think. Hmm oh ya. I stopped drinking soya bean coz My sis said that it can release some female hormones to my body. Thats SCARY. so, nono soya bean, not too much, although i know that after drinking 100 litres of soya bean in an hour, i will still be 5x more manly than an average man in singapore. Hey, no joking, im more man than a lot of men here. :P.
Oh well, me go now. tata. See yer peeeps.
*Everyone must be given a chance to prove themselves, but should not be given too many chances*
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Wednesday, January 30, 2008- Well, 2 days to my birthday. 17 years old sounds old. Also, it tells me that I am getting closer and closer to National Service. Damn! i wasted my youth-hood. So idiot la.
Hmm, unlike me, a lot of the other youths are either spending their youth-hood taking things for granted, enjoying it, enjoying privileges that their family have, and bla bla bla bla, and also for some, being people hu they are not (disgustingly fake, no offence).
Hah, not to mention, being the guy hu sadly cant express his true feelings after losing the ability to because I always had to stand up for my own self, (my rights and all) since 10 years old, which always ended up as a failure. Why? What i said was not respected. No listeners around me. And no motivation given. All that was given to me those days, was from myself. Not even my family.
I could still remember when i was 11, i spent most of my time during recess alone in the hall. Noone noticed me. AND I WASNT EMOING, COZ ITS GAY AND IM DARN FINE STRAIGHT! Whenever there was success, for example in my exams or tests, people would just give personal attacks to me. Well, its immatured like DUH! and im like so matured here, ehem.
Yeah, but sadly, i did not fight back. Why? I do not want to hurt anyone. And this is a weakness of being too nice. People will begin to forget your limits and become sucked up.
hah, so, teens out there better dont take ur youthful years for granted. And, don't end up like me, unable to express my true and deeper feelings and all. What i want to say, is pretty hard to say out. Better find someone to listen to you, and help you around. Just a message so that you wont regret.
*and if i say, that the last sacrifice i will make is a sad one, will someone at least take pity for me? its quite a mystery..*
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Monday, January 28, 2008- hmm. okok, its been quite a while since i've blogged. check this out! created by me:
Things that should not happen during a job interview:-
1)Boss: Okay, lets see, how good are you to apply for this job?
You: BETTER THAN YOU!
2) Boss: Can you show me your identification card?
You: Oh, sure thing. Here you go. (Gives Identification Card)
Boss: Okay, lets see, you are Rahimi, Born at 1st of February 1991
You: Oh my god! You know so much about me! Are you a spy??!
3) Boss: Okay, now what job position do you want in this company?
You: I want to be your boss.
4) Boss: Why do you want to apply for this job?
You: Then why do you work?! MONEY RITE??! No brain! (knocks Boss's head)
hah, okay, that all dudes and babes, homosexuals(none i hope) and all the others!
thats all what i have. See yer!
*Someone wana replace the wall that i used to punch everyday. Dont make me hurt you, i dont want to.*
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Thursday, January 24, 2008- Got my O level results. Quite disappointing. L1 R5 of 20 points and L1 R4 of 15 points. Although I cut my L1R4 points by a half frm term 2, i still think that it is not good enough.
CCA points was like -3 points! i thought that the maximum is only -2 points but it was like, -3 points? Wow, if i were to go for a JC, does that mean that my cut off points is 17? still not good.
haiya..
But still, i have to be grateful for what I have, even though i know that I must still strive harder for a better education.
Back at home, told my results. And bla bla bla. Surprisingly, my decisions in what i want to do are still not respected. Who am I? an 8 year old? Please la, i dont think that you dont wana fume me up la. Not only that, they still wana spam me and all. like wth la. All the thoughts of showing my devil to even my family came up to my mind. Trust me, noone wana see me at the other side.
*what the person said, is what i wana say.. hope someone knows what that mean, though im not saying it directly*
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Wednesday, January 23, 2008- Just came back from Home Team Academy. Today's meeting is about the postings and stuff for the Annual Parade. Well, do you know that my butt and legs still hurt? Limped like mad for the whole day. Haha. I couldn't believe that the Field Instructors still remember me. Well, to me, its quite a good thing. Furthermore, they are the people that I can really learn a lot from which includes in life itself. Speaking of that, FI Fadzri just told me something which is very helpful that I must have to improve my leadership skills.
Posting results will be out on 25/1. I hope things will turn out just fine.
* "I know that a person like you will get his courage" - Fazlin to me (shortened). *
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- I was a total bugger. I have to KNOW the difference between PM and AM on the watch.
lol, wanted to go to Home Team Academy at 6am, instead on 6pm. i dono y. Maybe i was too tired. Sorry Mas, accidentally kacau u frm ur sleep -_-. hey hey! at least i woke u up for ur morning prayers! wow, rahimi, wow. well, im gonna meet CI jennifer pang and masdiyanah at 6 PM later. wow. im THAT hopeless. lol.
Tomorrow is the day when im gonna collect my O level results. I'm nervous, very anxious and stuff, but what i know is that im trying really hard to forget it. Lets just pray for the best.
*It keeps coming more and more. And u kept appearing in my dream every single day now.*
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Tuesday, January 22, 2008- The day started with me going to Yishun Town Secondary School. Surprisingly, Masdiyanah was earlier than Zhuang Yi today. lol. Zhuang Yi went on to take some secondary 2 people going for NPAP, while Mas and I were like playing around with Zhuang Yi's voice. Rusok, Senjeeaaaaa...
lalalala. I made fun of myself (urgh, crazy guy.), coz i tend to command too fast. Lets give a CLEARER command, Rahimi.
Time flew, and Secondary 3 and NCOs came. Kena BUTT AND LEG ACHE FOR THE WHOLE DAY! cool huh? was limping a lot of times. Thats cool. lol. Too bad man, i did too much squats yesterday. hah.
then, announcing something. The devil version of me is coming soon. Aint telling when, but it can scare some people. All the while, no alter ego of mine was in NPCC. It was the more relaxed person of me. Warning. He's coming back.
Oh ya, saw this sign "moderation is the new sexy" WHAT??! its so darn wrong. RAHIMI IS THE NEW SEXY! lol. what the hell. thats nuts.
I seem to be back on track with my exercises. Its pretty good. Starting to run next time.
*Its only been a while ago, but I missed yer.*
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Monday, January 21, 2008- Today seemed kinda normal, except that something kinda "kookoo" happened just now.
It was morning then, i was using the com when my mum told me that a fire broke out "upstairs" and told me to check it out. So, i went down frm the second floor (where my house is) to the carpark, and looked up too see where the "fire" was from. Well, saw smokes, and it came from the fifth floor. Went up to the fifth story and there were like around 10 residents gathering there. Learning frm CI Jasmine's (THANK YOU LOL) zai-ness and steady skills, i went there and said this (edited), "okay everyone, im a trained professional at this situation and this is simple. Listen to me, call 995 and get the nearest fire extinguisher here." LOL. said that and kept calm and steady. I was like, "what the hell" when a unit was filled with cooking gas. And theres a smoking pot. The owner was not at home. And the dog inside the house was barking like mad. Poor thing. I was told that the 995 hotline cannot be reached, and i was like "WHAT??!". Asked the others if theres anyone still inside. Some said maybe, they like not sure like that. So, i did one simple thing. I shouted "HALLO! (hello)" very loudly. So loudly that the people beside me were shocked. Noone responded. Conclusion, noone is inside, if there is anyone inside, he/she/they are either deaf or dead. lol. They told me at first that there was someone inside, so, i tried to break into the house, smashing the window rail with my wrist. lol. They say cannot, but the thing was like so light la, although it was soft. I was sure i can break it! grr! lol. forget it.
Asked them to turn off all sources that have fire or can cause fire. They also turned off the electrical appliances, lol.
Luckily, they managed to contact the owner and she finally reached home. Unit number: #05-648. I told the people around there that they might want to buy a 4-digit draw number of 5648. LOL. sure strike! lol.
Then, did some banana-yoghurt shake and went to the gym to exercise. The first time i did squats at the gym, usually at home. My butt ached. hah. Wow, imagine if someone is to take anabolic pills and proteins and does squats like mad. He or she will have a darn BIG MUSCULAR BUTT. wow.
Then went to the father barber shop and to the mosque at serangoon north till around 22 45 hours. And, here i am, typing this blog entry. hah.
*Well, hope i can see you tomorrow..*
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Sunday, January 20, 2008- hello. today is a Sunday. Sunday is one day before Monday, Monday is one day before Tuesday, tuesday is one day before wednesday, wednesday is one day before thursday, thursday is one day before friday, friday is one day before saturday, and saturday is before sunday. so, is monday one day before monday or 6 days after monday? makes me wonder. which day comes first?
3 days ago, i had a nightmare. I could still remember what it was all about. There were lots of people suffering, and the world was red. They were crying, begging hard that they will not be tortured anymore. After that, i saw a dark, endless hole sucking them in. They were trying hard to hang on there, but did not manage to escape. Wow, thats only the little part, i cant describe the worse part. lol. and i cant wake up frm my dream until mum woke me up. Thnx mum!
Well, last night's dream was a much better one. Cant elaborate much on it, maybe next time when i have more time aite? hah. Aint a wet dream, dont worry, its dry dream.
And, just 2 more fridays to my birthday!! lol. and O level results probably released next week. that fact is pretty good at making me nervous and feeling like peeing yer noe.
And to the spammer on my tagboard naming HIMSELF "Rahimi's" i know that ur a man, stop playing a fool arnd, or im really gonna go to internet and track ur IP address, track ur address using that and kick ur arse. Its so obvious ur a guy, u idiot, and ur not having schl. Dont think im an idiot. You dont want to irritate me.
Other than that, thnx for reading, everyone!!
*You smell so so so nice. and nicer than me.^^*
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Wednesday, January 16, 2008- today, i started to exercise at home. woo hoo!
- Punch the wall nearly everyday?
- Hate sit ups cause its not useful?
- Can do the some flips that WWE wrestlers use in their matches?
- Am actually a little bit timid?
- Got a rock-stab mark at my right knee?
- Am once afraid of the dark?! LOL
- Prefer to bully bullies, and not the much weaker once?
- Hate SPOILT BRATS!
- Usually eat 4 meals or more a day?
- Have bad throat infection? -_- and small eyes. HAH.
and tomorrow, I HAVE TO GO TO HOME TEAM ACADEMY!! -_-
guess, tomorrow will be quite a packed up day.
well, about today, its pretty much of eat, play com, polish boot, exercise day. BOORINNG!!
hah.
okay, lets start with some facts.
Do you know that I...:
OKAY thats with the 10 facts.
hmm, yea! and check out this story. its pretty funny. these are label instructions found on some products..
Label Instructions: In case you needed further proof that 1. On a blanket from Taiwan 2. On a helmet mounted mirror used by US cyclists 3. On a Taiwanese shampoo 4. On the bottle-top of a (UK) flavoured milk drink 5. On a New Zealand insect spray 6. In a US guide to setting up a new computer 7. On a Japanese product used to relieve painful 8. In some countries, on the bottom of Coke bottles 9. On a packet of Sunmaid raisins 10. On a Sears hairdryer 11. On a bag of Fritos 12. On a bar of Dial soap - DIRECTIONS 13. On Tesco's Tiramisu dessert 14. On Marks & Spencer Bread Pudding - 15. On a Korean kitchen knife 16. On a string of Chinese-made Christmas lights 17. On a Japanese food processor 18. On Sainsbury's peanuts 19. On an American Airlines packet of 20. On a Swedish chainsaw 21. On a child's superman costume 22. On some frozen dinners 23. On a hotel provided shower cap in a box 24. On packaging for a Rowenta iron 25. On Boot's "Children's" cough medicine 26. On Nightly sleep aid | |||
kay okay, enuf enuf. thats all peeps. nites.
*if only i can do what a lot of others can..haiz..*
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Sunday, January 13, 2008- Took an EQ Test Just Now.
You scored 80% correct!
Remember you responses need to have been as honest as possible. If you feel that your score does not reflect you, please retake the test and answer each question in the way that best represents the way you typically feel.
Your score indicates that you have an above average EQ.
People that typically score in this range are able to recognise and understand their feelings as well as being able to express them in an appropriate manner. They are comfortable with who they are. They are not afraid to show love, empathy and compassion for other people. They are comfortable with intimacy and comfortable about giving of themselves to other people.
They are also very good communicators.
They are very in tune with themselves and those around them. In most circumstances they know how to say the right thing at the right moment. They are good friends and partners. They are able to show anger in appropriate ways and are not afraid to stand up for what they believe. They are not afraid to cry if they are hurt. They are not afraid to admit that they are wrong, or embarrassed to say they are sorry.
They are typically happy, well-rounded people.
They easily accept challenges and are able to stay motivated and focused in the face of setbacks. They are able to set and achieve goals for themselves. They are positive and optimistic about themselves, the others around them, and their future.
Remember that emotional intelligence never stops growing. Because people are always evolving, EQ is something that needs to be nurtured. If it isn't your emotional intelligence will disappear. Continue to utilise the emotional intelligence that you have and continue to identify and work on areas that need work. If you do this, your EQ will continue to flourish!
wow! My EQ is like 80% man..
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- Oh yea! received $200 for good progress award. im $200 richer!! woot.
waited frm 8.30 am to 10 am just for PM Lee to arrive. First time seeing him in person. But, just like all of us, hes also a human being. But, its pretty cool though, a big shot le.
So, i slept and went idling and lamin arnd for 1 and a half hours waiting for them.
Come to think of it, 1h 30 min wasted!
after that, went home, no food, go out, buy 4 egg prata, EAT!
oh yea, speaking of eat, im feeling less energetic. needa exercise more ordy. maybe tomorrow will start hardcore-ing with exercise. woot. lol.
and oh yea, im wrong. results coming out maybe on 21 jan. wow. so many changes LOR.
hmm, i think that i wana take psychology as my course. coz, i might be interested in SPF. U just need a good education to get a high rank. come to think of it, maybe i can tell my father and ask him for advice.
and and, i feel like going for mandarin course! lol. its good to learn other languages u noe.
*recovering the last piece of my puzzle*
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Saturday, January 12, 2008- today was pretty tiring.
im getting older and older each day, and my campcraft skills sort of get worse.
I only managed to tie a square lashin in 45 sec. amazing. thats too long.
aiyo, and sec 2s are soo damn excited about an end of a rope getting into a loop. i seriously dono y. i bet my alter ego wont accept so much of ppl fooling arnd.
sec 3s.. there have been some improvement in the campcraft team la. but, they are still not there yet, to me. very far away, in fact. well, just hope that they become more focused and more intensed in it.
as for me, i still have a lot to learn, whether in npcc, or life itself.
Well, my dreams and goals are not yet achieved, and its kinda obvious that im not gonna just hope for it. and yeah, discouraged at the moment, but encouraging myself a lot.
and yeah, just now masdiyanah and jing lin gave me a "nut" name. WTH, its almond - nut?!
sounds weird. ok then, signing off.
*psst. few more weeks to my birthday* LOL.
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Thursday, January 10, 2008- omg omg omg. do you know that O level results collection is most probably at 29 january?
so darn anxious.
I still do not know what course i should take when i go to poly! shit! this so sux.
i was researching like mad. Engineering is too scary and too "project" for me, and too complicated. Anything to do with Psychology is pretty hard at getting me to get a stable job in the future.
The business world is a BITCH. Can i study law? LOL. I DONO WHAT TO CHOOSE!
Wow, maybe i should be a teacher. HAH. random thoughts again.
People who dont do their homework, carry on 50 push ups.
and i will scream at them until their eyes are rolled to the back of their heads. wow.
im NOT a sadist. for your information. Maybe, i will be a super teacher and bring miracle to a hopeless school. wow. imagine that.
I still have no idea what course i should go. LOL.
Oh yea. I received $150 EAGLES award for leadership. cool eh? will be collecting another $200 for Good progress award (academic). HAH. good progress! woot!
And and, i also bought a new book, its a book for self improvement on leadership skills. Its so damn cool to read it la. And And, I think i wana start learning A maths. LOL. SERIOUS!! have been waiting for 2 freaking years.
okay okay, needa go sleep, tml have to go for NPCC training once again. see yer peeps.
*Something just stopped me from doing what i want to do..*
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Monday, January 7, 2008- OW!! chest pain at 19 52 hours.
today is quite a pain in the ARRSSEEE!!
firstly, in the morning, i have to send this spoilt brat (my father's fren's son) to Peiying Primary School. he tried to run frm me when i send him, i played a game. he carried his bag on his back, and i just grab him like a horse! wahaha. its good to irritate spoilt brats and see them doing nothing but to accept it. a sense of satisfaction. i dont like spoilt brats hu act as though they wish to remain as spoilt brats, so yea.
then, i go gyymmm!! woot. only lasted for arnd an hour. wana noe y? coz i was too hungry!! lol.
i think that tml, i will start feeling pain frm the gym.
then, once again have to bring the spoilt brat home and babysit him like hell. one handed arm locked him a few times just now coz his too stubborn. hah. and PUT HIM TO SLEEP at 3.30 pm thnk god. lol.
tml have lots more stuff to do. well, guess i'll go now. see ya.
*all of us make mistakes. but, if we keep doing that and never learn frm it, its called making a sin to yourself*
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Sunday, January 6, 2008- theres so much to talk about, but so little time.
firstly, i kinda miss doing these things:
-Chatting and talking all the way with zurain like how we were in 2005 and 2006. but, she's with her O levels this year. haha, nvm, i shall wait!
-Playing with my exercising toys at home.
-Doing maths questions.. LOL
-Saying "Knock it down"
-Able to say out how i really feel (sadly not able to).
-Playing a sport.
-Many many more...
Well, ZURAIN! be touched ah. lol.
okay.. and guess what? im back to tying gadgets out of dowel poles and cotton twines once again, thnx to the campcraft competition the sec 3s are having this year. Still figuring out how i can make a better gadget, although the one i taught them is pretty cool. I still feel like posting more, but time is running out. so, bye bye.
*if only theres someone out there who can really see thru me and tell others how i really feel and what im really thinking about..*
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Thursday, January 3, 2008- okay okay. this is to prevent any misunderstandings or confusion around.
we shall talk about...
Rahimi vs CI Rahimi during NPCC trainings.
What the hack is the difference between the two.
Rahimi is me, and CI Rahimi is like my "alter ego" and i can be CI Rahimi whenever i choose to.
CI Rahimi can get really frustrated when theres nonsense going on. Rahimi can tahan nonsense, but not too much.
Rahimi is more sociable, although he can be a little bit loner.
CI Rahimi is more hardcore than Rahimi
and more.......
but the things that are similar between these two personality is that they will always have this will to learn and make sure that people will have a better life for the future.
aww. so sweet. hah. okok, enuf is enuf.
But hey, theres so much for me to learn, and so much for me to contribute to the society itself.
So yeah, woot!
whatever happens, if I am to frown to anyone when i in NP, you should know what it means la.
oh well. bye, tml got another NPCC training.
*i love to eat. lol, thats random*
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Tuesday, January 1, 2008- ok ok, firstly. A HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!
- Become a very cool, wise and very very good CI
- Find a good job to support for my expenses and studies
- Have a good start in poly and also to have a good course
- Complete most of my National Youth Achievement Award (gold)
- Be super fit
- Get 70 kg by the end of the year
- Be a better person
so, people might ask : Rahimi, whats your new year resolution?
well people, these are my resolutions...
w00t! there you go! well, whatever happens, work hard people! no matter how much you can fail, never give up. you will never know that the next time u attempt something, it will be a successful one. go for it! hah.
well, maybe i posting some things later too. so, don't miss it!
bye!
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