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Tuesday, October 30, 2007- pretty frustrated today. I ONLY NEED ANOTHER 2 FREAKING SECONDS TO GET 1 MORE PATHETIC IDIOTIC FREAK-FACE MARK FOR MY MATHS PAPER 2!! DAMMIT!! grr. oh well, its over. BURN THE E MATHS NOTES!! lol. up next is malay. revising rite now as i blog.
well. just a piece for me to say here
in this life of mine, things do change a lot. I didn't really changed much. Yea, the same guy, with 10 different characters in him. or even more. But, things always dont turn out the way it should be..
I tried too hard. i just simply did. everything that i wanted so much in my life. i tried too hard. yet, i dint do that good enough. no matter how much i try to soar, no matter how hard i tried to fly, my obstacles, my flaws, they will always be the gravity that will prevent me from going futher up.
haiz, and today. i thought of sacrificing again. This time, making my life more miserable. Im just willing to be sacrificing those years of shit and sweetness together, just for ur happiness.
Yea, i noe. every single thing in those day, which had brought colours to my all black life. (although i like the colour black). Life will mean much more less, but i simply dont care.
so what about me? what makes me so special? so important?
theres no such thing, probably never a fact that i will be that important.
Just be happy, that im really willing to do all of tis.
I dont mind being forgotten, just like how that many others have forgotten and deserted me.
yea, doesnt matter to me anymore.
*hah, I think i should think positive. at least, after i lose almost everything again, i will have nothing to lose. haha, yea.*
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Monday, October 29, 2007- maths was easy today. but, i lost 2 marks. LOL. i seriously hope that i will get 78 out of 60. im really serious. i worked hard to score high. not to do averagely. like wad mr emmanuel teo said "a mere pass is not enough". oh yea, guess wad? if i get less 20 points for l1b5 in O levels, i will get y21 gold award! lol. thats cool.
oh yea, i dont have the heart to burn my english file of notes. i cant bear to. and guess wad? english paper 1 is HARD. i wrote around a thousand words for both sections. i just hope that i will have a few mistakes.
aiyo. got muscle aches all over. actually, its yay! rahimi's growing muscles! i am gonna be hot guy! wait a minute.. i already am.. SERIOUS. hah. i plan to work at golden village, u noe, to be the guy hu giv way and stuff. but i dono la. finding a better job, if any. should i post to be on MALE HOTTEST MAGAZINE? lol. i dont think theres such thing. lucky for them, or else the manager will be on his/her knees asking me to get in. Okay, i think im too cheeky, lol.
oh well thats all now. tata.
*be my painkiller. my panadol.*
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Sunday, October 28, 2007- im nervous. tomorrow is not just another day. its a day in the O levels which has the most weightage over all the other days. it consists of english paper 1 and 2 and e maths paper 1. Now u see wad i mean? no? ok, let me tell u a little deeper. If u fail ur english, you fail your O LEVELS!
if u dont pass ur e maths, forget going to POLY? now u get what i mean? no? then go ahead and fail both of the subjects in YOUR O levels and u will get what i mean! HAH! ok, too nervous, almost got crazy. LOL.
i did quite some things to prepare for tomorrow. i revised everything in maths since days, recapped a lot of times. went to gym to release stress and pressure in my brain. lol. i hope i dont get nervous breakdown. never want to.
argh! neck pain. need a massage here! darling! can massage me, than i massage u? wow rahimi. "darling". im so nervous, i wana punch someone! or kick! or wrestle! nono, im not gonna be violent to "darling". lol. seriously, "darling?"
orite now, recapping on my subjects now, maybe gonna mug POA real hard later. and do some exercise to release tension again.
*goodbye to my oppurtunity. goodbye CI. lol. OH WELL WADEVER!*
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Saturday, October 27, 2007- Im dedicating this entry to the 3 skippers of YTSS!(amanda, xue li and jimei) I could still remember when i first saw them doing skipping. In my mind, it was, "Oh my god! They're awesome! I did not know skipping can be that COOL." im serious!
and yea, i was IMPRESSED. but, soon, i became quite a fan of their performances. Its like, wow, they're so cool! u noe wad i mean rite? haha. Amanda is actually a junior of mine from npcc, and shes damn friendly towards me la. from there, met xue li. then, saw them training, and met jimei. All nice people, in fact. Children at heart, fighters at their soul. Thats wad i can say from their hard work making the school proud. can say Singapore also you know! and yea, i became their biggest fan. U noe wad? Whatever happens, they are still the best skipping team to me.
And yea, thnx to amanda, xue li and jimei for being nice and kind towards me. appreciate a lot.
u noe wad? only 2 weeks plus to the last O level paper. i must endure!!
argh. must study dam hard.
ANYONE HAVE INFORMATION FOR A QUITE GOOD PAY AND NICE PART TIME JOB, PLZ
INFORM ME!!! thnx a million!!
*im feeling empty. right here. oh yea. im serious*
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Friday, October 26, 2007- haiya. history was.. easy. but i think i got a feeling im getting b3.. haiz.
I WANT A FREAKING a2 or a1 !! grr. i have to pray now. lol.
speaking of pray, viknesh, edmund tan and i go canteen to eat la just now.
then we talked about mrs gopala.
me: mrs gopala is very good at predicting things le.
vicknesh: ya. if mrs gopala managed to predict all the topics, ill make a statue of her and build a temple for her.
me: yea, and create mrs gopalaism or something.
and guess wad? she managed to predict all the topics coming out at O level history SEQ!! lol. viknesh owes her a darn statue and temple. woot.
cool eh? dam darn cool.
oh yea, was actually not feeling that well. got pain here and there. and chest pain.
so, walked to sun plaza. ouch. chest pain when i type. lol. saw boon ping in home clothes pointing middle finger at me. i came forward to him.
Me: which finger u use?
Boon ping: *shows his right middle finger. like as if hes swearing at me*
Me: *grabbed his finger with hand and twist it*
lol. and he was like. OWWWW......! lol. he scold me cb. then i ask "which mouth u use?" u can imagine wad i can do next right? haha. then, went out of sunplaza, and saw this girl (older than me). seemed very familiar.. like a senior.. Dont tell me shes my npcc nco when i sec 1, shahila.
hmm not sure though.
oh yea, and pain kept going on, dont want to let others noe that time, so, i had no choice but to go home. haiya haiya.
*noe wad? all those times and times where i believed? im truely disappointed now.*
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Thursday, October 25, 2007- oh yea! so cool! oh whatever!? wassup with that.
my day today is so darn freaking long. i multi-tasked. studied history. covered 95% of the book. seriously, thats counted A LOT. we actually dont have to cover that much. but i did. just to be safe.
today, went to IMM and sim lim square with Kamal. he wana search for a Notebook. u noe, the computer, notebook. U NOE! grr. if u dono, ill smack ur koo koo brain. if u noe, ill still smack it! lol. suddenly i so over. lol. guess wad? we slept on the train on the way home. too tired. i suddenly woke up when my head got knocked against the window. lol. so darn dumb. and guess wad? i slept with my hands both pointing middle fingers in public. so cool.
hah, oh yea, changed song on blog. drones by rise against.
*i only bully for fun, without hurting ppl in the heart, or i will bully ppl hu bully the weaker ones. get this in ur head*
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Wednesday, October 24, 2007- im happy about the fact that i was ready for chemistry paper today. I want an A1! i worked hard for it, i hope that i earn it, as well as other subjects. but, i seriously dont know y, some people say hard, some say sure die, like my friend from another school. i just hope that i will not do badly although it seemed easy to me.
well. enough about chemistry.. for a while. now is history time. stalin, hitler, mao, sun yatsen, all those DEAD people. i must study about them. lol. isnt that cool? i just want to do well for all the subjects, enough said. Chiong ah! i hope i dont end up in the history book so quickly, just like the dead people im learning about.
AHAHAHA im dead. lol. not yet. im not running nor freaking away. thats just me.
*being nice is one thing. being patient is another thing. but when u seriously provoke me, kicking ur ass is my kind of thing. there goes my random phrases again*
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Tuesday, October 23, 2007- tomorrow is where O level papers start for me. Science-chemistry paper. cool eh? haha. i almost 100% ready liao. but rite now, lets not talk about it.
Lately, there has been quite some people reading my blog (thnx!). However, i would want to tell all of you that i do not like much conflicts to happen just because of wad i type in my blog. Pretty please? haha. but serious now. This is because, i have been hearing that conflicts are happening between others mainly because of my blog. Oh yea, and what i noe is that the conflict is mostly a misunderstanding because people MISREAD my blog. aiyo. open eyes wide wide leh. haha. seriously, my eyes are small and they can still read. So, i bet that all of you can do better. thanks! so, please, i really do not like any fights or conflict to happen just because of my humble blog which has Straight-to-the-point comments on things going on around me. So, in conclusion, only I can put up my conflicts in my blog HAHA. lol. jk la. i only put if they are that serious to me and if i cannot tahan.
Secondly, i want to complain! tag me le!! read read, then dont tag.. haha.
ok, back to the topic. Oh yea, just dont fight because of me ah. i dont want to be a source of conflict among people. Don't like to destroy people's frenship. Okay? pleaasseee...?
Seriously, i would really be happy if people go around being interested in wad i said here, but dont fight le ):. thank u everyone. rahimi love u, u and u too. (people hu wana puke or poop, please do so.) hah.
*Crazy about Dim Mak now. lol. so darn cool!! check it out people!*
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Saturday, October 20, 2007- my appetite for food has increased by half. Do u noe how big my appetite was before this?
let me tell u. i have the biggest appetite in my family. despite my size. i have beaten my dad's appetite for food too. And now.. it has increased by 50%. im soo cool. i used to be hungry 3 hours after a meal. but now, ill get hungry 3 hours after every mealtime when i ate 2 meals! im so proud.
im soo gonna gain weight. hopefully.
now let me tell u something ironic about me. Im a lil afraid of heights. wana noe the ironic part? i kinda like stunts where people do high risk moves like jumping frm floor to floor and stuff, and lately, jackie chan's stunt at the eiffel tower in rush hour 3. i was like.. WOW!! thats the most impressive stunt i have ever seen! EVER! haha. im kinda lame. i guess, this is all.
*ytss hot couple? oh me gosh!*
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Friday, October 19, 2007- today was a ya-ya day. studied for 8-9 hours today. yes. and most of it, i studied POA. im starting to love it, god noes y..
actually, miss (disclosed) was very very sad just now. was in her mother tongue class. then i went to make her feel better (although i dont think it did). very paiseh. imagine u trying to do that to a girl in front of many others. lol. i did wad i can though. for a guy hu cant talk so well informally.
im sorry abt u feeling sad though. once again, after a thousand times, hope u cheer up.
and yea, guess wad? 100 plus is good for u when u have fever. it cooled me down just now. no longer had fever. i drank 1 litre of it. so darn power. i bathed with cold water early in the morning.
lol. COLD SEH! and guess wad? thnks to fever, i cant watch the freaking show that i wana watch so much yesterday!! ARGH!!
and lastly,
Dear Ahmad, the super senior frm ahmad ibrahim sec hu have been a CI, u totally busted me, with ur frens. LOL.
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007- today was cool. i managed to do 2 physics paper, 100% preparation for maths is complete, and did some POA final accounts. Its really a miracle i did POA. Im so damn happy. THANKS GOD!! lol.
and i rewarded myself by going to the gym in the afternoon at 5.30pm. intensive exercise. chiong until i tired. haha.
made myself a banana yogurt shake again. lol. its pretty cool. yum. i want to drink it again! grr.
actually ah.. these days easily kena chest pains. actually started going to the gym to keep fit, and when i start going, chest pains begin to decrease. quite cool eh..? started to get chest pains yesterday. today chest pains got more "cool".
so.. let me tell u some reasons (with my honesty) y i like to go to exercise and go to gym.
1) i dont want chest pain.
2) a method of releasing stress
3) wana be more attractive? LOL
4) prepare for NS.
5) keep fit!
6) so that i will have less chance at falling sick during O levels.
7) become more hawt?! lol. (cross this one out. its not true.)
yea. so thats all ya. tml have science practical. i prepared liao! so happy. wish me all the best.
haha.
*im willing to accept the truth if u tell me. just be honest to urself (:*
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007- wow. today was a day.
came back, and high-fived with amanda. haha. what can i say. good buddies.
then, went up to 3rd level to study everything bout chemistry. and guess wad?
im left with only 1 ez chapter!! woohoo! yea, serious discipline time in the morning. lol.
after that, dono how, kena kacau by "sis" miss nurulain and seri.
ain seriously nothing to do. want to ransack my bag. she was playing tug-of-war with me.
i tried to play easy on her, but shes pretty violent for a girl. not bad not bad.
im serious. lol. she tried doing a lot of things in the book. hit here hit there. hit hit everywhere, except for "there" -_-. and doodled and wrote things on the book. lol. power la u. :)
after that, suddenly joined with 3 others, solehah, shafiqah and aisah.
seriously, they were teasing about me and (disclosed).
i just play along when they talk LOR.
told them some life and school stories, not to mention some ghost stories and stuffs.
and yea, shafiqah and seri screamed when i told them some stories which sort of spooked them.
my reaction was "mengampah..." (makes me sick..) lol. i seriously directly told them. but joking way la. haha. i frenly wad.... DUH. lol
went to northpoint alone just now to find something. kena chest pain then cant breathe properly. power la!! NOW I CANT GO GYM TO EXERCISE!!
well, tml im studying the beloved PHYSICS subject. practical is on thursday, gotta prepare.
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Saturday, October 13, 2007- gd evening people. i just came back home and had some rest.
Firstly, i would like to wish a happy hari raya aidilfitri to all the muslim people.
Guess what? i was at my grandma house and woodlands, and i saw these girls. QUITE pretty. too bad, when i see them smoke, it seems that they are amazingly UGLY. im serious.
Do you know what this mean? The personality of people actually matters more than their looks. DUH. I am just proving this theory right. Who says that guys only go for looks? please ah.
Let me tell u about a super young toddler cousin of mine. She is SUPER ADORABLE!! grr!
Her voice made my sis and me go AWW! lol. even for a guy like me. the macho one. LOL. no shame
she likes to say "hello" and "bye bye" to me, for some reasons that i cant explain. And i will keep saying those to her back. Wow, seems like she is the one hu likes to approach me a lot. lol.
Another ironic thing is about my dad. At one side of my relative, hes so fierce, toddlers a lot of times scared of him. Another side, hes a lil baby magnet. like me. LOL.
Just did push up with toddler on me. Its tiring. lol. Long time dint do push up oso. GYM!! IM COMING FOR U SOON!!
*life moves on*
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Thursday, October 11, 2007- had graduation day. guess wad? the 10 vs 1 dustbin match, i won. lol. for the 10th and final attempt, they dint manage to beat me. thats something cool.
well, during graduation day, i was kinda showing a very happy front. dont wana show that i a little sad la. dont know y, just now, my class surround mr teo that time, then i suddenly got out of the crowd. nothing much for me, but, as i looked at the class, seems so united, seems like they are so much of a lovely family. i just thought to myself, "no, i dont think i wana get in there".
hmm. well. its my formal goodbye to frens. goodbye to people like zurain (it has been 13 days after day 1000. i think 13 is really quite a number), the 3 skippers of ytss (dont forget ur biggest fan) and the people hu approach me at the desk(though i will still be there).
well, probably having quite a lonely life rite now eh. haha, whatever.
oh wells. gotta go to johor soon. all of u take care
*i might not be back next year. but life goes on. just a path.*
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Wednesday, October 10, 2007- two points for today...
1) bad hair day
2) a weird day.
im serious. and good thing i cut my hair too. i finally learned how to comb my hair properly.
lol. im such an ASS.
well, tomorrow is graduation day. I am going to take some photographs with friends.
after graduation day, i will NOT be online or blogging until monday or tuesday. this is due to the fact that I am going to Johor tml, and "hari raya-ing" the next few days. i will miss my fellow readers here ): .
And guess what? My friends are about to attempt to put me inside the dustbin on their 11th attempt. Almost prepared for it. I am going to retaliate. Its a 10++ vs 1 match. isn't that cool?
NOT cool. Imagine the heavyweight feroz and power house raguram, together with more backups then ever from the WHOLE LEVEL!! oh my god.
Haiya, aint able to make it to CI course i guess. haiz..
yep. dad dint allow me. power la. IM 16!! omg!!
grr.
oh well. life goes on
*1 more day to graduation day. the moment of truth*
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Tuesday, October 9, 2007- I shall first start this with a quote by a person
"The golden opportunity you are seeking is in yourself. It is not in your environment; it is not in luck or chance, or the help of others; it is in yourself alone."
-Orison Swett Marden
Okay. Let me further explain to you what these 2 sentence mean. Firstly, whatever dreams you want to reach out for in life, you have to at first make sure that you really want it. It is the passion that you have in yourself, that makes you decide whether you want it, or lose it. And its also the attitude in YOURSELF that makes you either want to work hard or just slack around for the goal that you want to reach out for, the golden opportunity. It doesnt matter much about the things around that seemed like they will disrupt your journey to what you want. Also, people's help do help you at times. However, it is still nothing if you do not start helping and pushing your own ass up to what you want. That is why, it IS in yourself alone. Luck and chances will never happen when you expect them to come over and knock on your door.
So, you just need to put just more than wad you have, and do not matter whether u have to sacrifice this and that. 'Coz sometimes, a lot of sacrifices have to be made for the thing that you want so much. However, we must still remember that sacrifices do not guarantee your success.
So, this golden opportunity is in YOU. Are you game enough to face your challenges? Are you daring enough to see some failures to learn from?
*2 days to graduation day. Almost gone, formally*
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Monday, October 8, 2007- hey. guess wad? IM IN FOR CI COURSE!! im like so happy when I get to register on the paper. Other 3 frens of my frm ytss hu are joining are "Mother Mary" Pang Zhuang Yi(mother mary sounds so other religion) and Masdiyanah. Well, i can only say this part. i scared that further information might leak out and the fun part will be no more. Face the wrath of Rahimi soon. lol. Im so glad that this great passion of mine can be served with once again. I will definitely look much hotter! lol. dyu noe that i wana get a make over? and have intensive super exercises that will make me look a liiiittle bit more sexy. ok, im ordy sexy, like, how sexy can i be? no idea. lol.
*3 days to graduation day*
*forget my name and, ill forget it too*
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Sunday, October 7, 2007- haiz.. guess tml is the start of the final 4 formal school days for me. secondary school. teenage school days. i have to kiss them goodbye. hah, i guess. its some sort of a bad ending for me.
dont ask me why. maybe i'll be telling next time. but not now.
ill officially say that im both happy and sad that noone will be really sad when im gone.
happy, coz i dont want any1 to be sad just abt me being gone. sad, bcoz.. it means that im just
not cared for. oh well.
*4 days to graduation day. a bad ending. i suppose. haiz *
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Saturday, October 6, 2007- wei people! i need u all to vote which pic is the nicer one la.. help vote le.. lol.
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- going out today. for a while. gonna change size of school shoe. and buy lychee. lol. my mum asked me to do one. going to northpoint to do so.
oh yea. ill be blogging again. so wait wait ah!
*guess i just hav to take a hike. or wait.*
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Friday, October 5, 2007- i officially want to explain, that me having a FLAT "cool"(bluek) hairstyle is due to 2 reasons.
1st reason. yesterday mr teo scolded me for bad hair. lol
2nd reason. bad hair day.
happy? huh? lol.
*6 days. i hope its not fate that i will really be disappearing away.*
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Thursday, October 4, 2007- argh.. i feel so bad...
i hate this so much. i dont think i can last long enough to keep people happy now.
and the only way i can make this last so long is through lying, which i obviously wont.
i hate to lie so much.
i guess... i have to tell the others my actual personal fact. argh. so hate it.
its kinda hard to understand this situation, coz right now, only a few people know what im going through.
right.. i noe this will hurt others. and mostly, me. a lot. i soo know its gonna happen.
i just dont know how im gonna face this. But, urgh. ill just have to do it!
*in life, most of the time, we dont seem to get what we want. it seems that we rarely, or never get what we want. but this is where life has its gift for us. we have challenges, we have obstacles. yes, and guess wad? sometimes, if we really make it through this obstacle, we will definitely get something better than wad we wanted at first.*
*7 days to graduation day. the day my emotions are let out. i will really b so darn depressed when we wont get to see each other.*
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Wednesday, October 3, 2007- was not feelin' that well, so, dint go for night study..
noe wad..? im seriously bored right now. im seriously SERIOUS.
and guess wad? i was so bored some free time during class, i doodled on my arm. like serious la, nothing to do. wana noe the cool thing? i drew a stickman on my arm and it went jumping arnd when i "bounced" my muscles. so darn cool. a few frens saw me doing the change of face drawing on my elbow area. when i harden my forearm, it will turn to a smiley face, if not, it will show straight face. its darn lame. i noe. but wad to do? better than the spanking game that my monitor raguram made. LOL. just now played that stupid game with joe. we signed a peace treaty though, LOL. the others were like , SPANK! SPANK! and we totally disappointed them. haha. joe and i keep "peace-ing" with each other. benefits for two sides. seriously miss arm wrestling. for some reasons.
haiya.. simply noe one to chat with right now. so darn bored.
*8 more days to graduation day. haiz.*
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Monday, October 1, 2007- argh! new time table was made and its so damn FREAKIN' PACKED UP!! URGH!!
yay! friday next week is a blank timetable! wana noe y? thursday is graduation day.. ):
but dont worry people, ur lucky day isnt on friday. i'll still be comin back to school day after day after day to study. needa mug very very hard. then u shall see me going for a higher education.
as usual, i will be at my personal table at 3rd level. huever wanna see me, just see la. dont be shy at all. haha, but dont just look at me like im a monkey in a cage la.
started packing up my things in school. cleared half arnd half of the things liao. speaking of things..
AMANDA!! we havent finish drawing the paper yet le!! wana finish it on next friday??! LOL
hmm. one thing i wish to know is.. hu will cry when im gone..? haha. bet noone will. maybe a cry of happiness. hah. i just noe that'll i'll really miss a few people there.. thousands of I MEAN IT!!
*haiz. i noe a lot of facts. i just knew so much. but i just dont know what to do.*
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