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Thursday, December 27, 2007- oh my. feeling sick today. i need more rest.
and yeah, today is NOT our official comeback to the unit. its tomorrow. they postponed parade la..
idiot. oh well, tomorrow is STC camp for the sec 2. Better for everyone to be prepared for the 3 days and 2 nites, including myself.
my boots are much shinier now proudly saying it. lol.
i just hope that the camp will turn out fine or even better. oh well. no time to waste now.
i better prepare my stuffs! i needa reach the school gate by 6.15am!! lol.
ok then. work hard people. bye.
*im back!!!!*
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Wednesday, December 26, 2007- SURPRISE SURPRISE!
im gonna be back tommorow, and u sure are damn right. Im a Cadet Inspector. Lol, the "boot camp" i went through is actually CI Basic Training Course Residential Camp, and me going "over seas", is true. im going over the seas to pulau ubin for CI atc. and yea, so, whether its good news or bad news, im still coming back.
Oh well, im a christmas present to the unit, along with Masdiyanah and Zhuang Yi. Yeah, santa clause sent us. Hell yea.
Well, my 2nd coming is here. my 1st coming is as a sec 1 cadet, and my 2nd coming is as a CI.
Im gonna make things right again and this unit will be the real meaning of an NPCC unit.
You gotta be sure about that.
Now, rahimi is back, masdiyanah is back, and zhuang yi is back. not forgetting aaron and roland as FIs. oh yea, we are the last 5 and we will make sure that the standard of the unit will improve dramatically and it will LAST for as long as ever.
*Do hate us if u really hate us, like us if u like us. But, we are making a miracle here! u will love the fruit of all of ur and our effort*
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007- "You don't stop when you're tired, you stop when you're done."
No matter how much you feel like stopping, whether you are on the verge of giving up or when you are really tired, dont! Never give up, not matter how much you have failed, no matter how far you are from achieving something (unless you need some time, and will fight even harder). Yea, its pretty hard to stick to the phrase, but you must! If you dont, you will lose out, and you dont want that to happen. Hah, yea, speaking of easier said than done, i am able to do that despite multiple failures that i faced myself. I am admitting that i ain't a successful person at all right now, i am trying hard to find a way to help my family, I almost gone kookoo after much disappointments and stuffs, i kept failing, tried harder, failed again.
But yeah, i have stopped before, and it is hard to get back on the track again.
So, my advice for you is to be self motivated too. Never show that you will lose, always fight it hard.
And when you are done, you have the rights to stop. I didnt say you cant go further.
Haha, yeah, wad i said about myself, it is true. But, i finally am able to get myself back up again.
and i kept working harder and harder. And.. finally, i still failed. LOL. but, thats not about it.
Im still willing to improve myself, make myself much better and strive even higher.
And yea, i admit it, its tiring always doing that, but its really worth it for me. and im not gonna stop until im done myself, or i wont stop even if im done.
And yep, in my life too. no matter how much i want to try to help someone who really deserves it, no matter how tired i get, i still feel that i shouldnt stop. I can give that person hope, who knows, maybe they will have a happier life thanks to me.
Im not sure if it will be successful, but, i will put in extra effort in that.
Wrapping things up, i hope that you guys will follow to this phrase too.
*All of us do mistakes. Even i do. I plead with much apologies for your forgiveness*
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Monday, December 24, 2007- Let me share with you a story.
There is this train, and as usual from every other day, it is moving on a track for a daily journey.
A hundred metres from the speeding train which contains 500 people, there are two separate tracks which are linked to one train track. One separate track is old and rusty, it has not been used for twenty years. Another is the new one, where the train usually moves on nowadays. On the new train track, there are seven children playing on it. They were in the act of mischief, playing around on it. On the old one, there is a lonely boy who is playing too. He decided not to play on the new track as he knew that it was too dangerous. He played on the old track, knowing that it is no longer being used. The train is speeding towards the new side of the track and the train controller realised that there were the 7 children playing on it. He had to choose whether he should switch to : the old, or the new track.
Imagine that you are the train controller. What should you do? Write it down on a piece of paper, or really be honest to yourself and tell yourself which track you want to go to..
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okay, if you choose to go to the old track, i will tell you this. You have made the wrong choice.
Although it seems that you will end up causing less trouble, it is in fact a different thing.
Think about this, the old track has not been used for 20 years, its old and rusty. If the train is to get on the old track, who knows, the train might just crash somewhere, killing 500 people on the train, which does not include yourself. You must be thinking ahead of what you are to do, and sometimes, you must not think selfishly.
if you choose the new track, you have made the right choice. Why is this so? There are seven children on the track, and you wana kill them?! wrong. Since there are seven children on the track, there will be less risk to them losing their lives. They have a high chance to see or hear the speeding train and will be able to warn each other about it.
Also, the old track only has one child, who might not be able to hear or see the train before it is too late.
And from this story, you are the controller, the track is the path you choose, the people on the train are the people who has something to do with you which can be your loved ones, your friends, your rivals, the poor, just anyone. I hope that you have learnt something from this. Everything you do, it may change situations, change lives and many things. Different paths could mean different things, the good or the bad.
You know, people, i have been reflecting a lot on this story myself, and i really have learnt a lot from it. My good intentions could not be seen by all of you right now, but im really sticking to it.
I hope that all the people who misunderstood me will understand that i really have good intentions and it may seem that im up to no good, being selfish or being a hypocrite, but i actually am not. Hah, but, i'm not forcing anyone to believe me, i just hope that you will though.
yeah, so, whatever i do, its something good that i want to do.
*The new guiding lights. we are here. back again. making things well again.*
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Sunday, December 23, 2007- okok. sorry peeps for the very loooooooong time of no updates in this blog.
hah, i was going thru lots of courses.
and guess wad?
i am sort of capable to be a Life Skills mentor!! woot.
seriously, im not sure if theres any such thing as a life skills course, but im thinking of offering it to some schools. still considering that. you know, its not about the money i care so much about(although im broke and desperate in terms of money now), but i feel that it is sooo damn right to teach others on having values of life itself. dont you think so? i think so. dont you think so? i think so. okok enuf.
oh yea! i suddenly have the feeling that i should start a sport. any suggestions? shooting? or should i sign up for the good ol' archery? i really not sure. maybe, if you guys have suggestions for a GOOD and CHEAP sport, you can tell me.
oh ya! and i wana go to gym tomorrow. i miss that good ol' place. dint go there since 3rd dec. i still remember. hah.
haha, and cool. yesterday, i suddenly met a lot of people hu knows me.
wow. im getting popular every single day.
oh well then. see ya, i will keep updating my blog except for some days later. i will not be at home somewhere at the end of dec. staying somewhere else..
*im going back to my old world. and things will change, things will be right again. i am going to make it happen.*
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Saturday, December 15, 2007- ok, im back after some days in Boot Camp.
have to leave tomorrow to go over seas. shit la. i catching. and im so stressed. i have big appetite for food right now, coz i have sore throat. its just me, sore throat + rahimi = hungry. im glad that my throat infection has stopped yesterday. i'll be back around 19 or 20 or 21. just see first la.
and and,i finished so much strepsils lozenges. lol. Hungry Hungry. Easily thirsty too.
wah, and im stressed up with some jobs i have to do. WOOHOO! i hate this. -_-
oh well, dont mind my strange behaviour, im stressed!! lol.
im not sure if i can go overseas like this lor, so sick.
and and. ZURAIN!! where are you??? lol.
at least chat for the last time before i go la -_-. lol.
wth, thats weird.
okok, gotta go now, i very very very very very very very very very very very very busy. woot.
tata.
*its a time where i can try to find an oppurtunity to give myself a second chance.*
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Tuesday, December 4, 2007- YESTERDAYS POST!!
first thing happens.. WHERE IS SWISS HOTEL??!! omg! it was prom nite.
managed to settle a time with ihsan and ridhwan to meet up. Ihsan said 5pm.
I was about to go out at 4.25 when ihsan told me that he want to shit and postponed it to 5.30 pm.
LOL.
Then suddenly ain and seri call me. i was panicking that time, preparing stuffs again. Then i tried to relax when talking to them oso. LOL. panicked like mad. then went out.
Reached the place ordy. Then at 7, we went in. Danial, son of Yusof, was silly. theres no chair for him at the muslim food table. He had to stand for quite long. lol. And ridhwan got best dancer award during a dancing game. 6 ppl were there that time, 2 were chinese dancer but ridhwan won. lol. Ridhwan strip danced at the last song. i was like, omg??! He won the grape juice champaign, which i finished after the others drank it. hah.
Then, after dining and all, they all go dance. I was sitting and walking around and stuffs.
and not forgetting taking pics with others. Lazy to use my cam, so must wait for others to send me the pics XD. Well, some pics are quite lame, so yea. just wait ya!
TODAYS POST!! LOL.
today is kinda bz for me. I went to doctor to prove that my hair is natural colour. It was a ridiculous time. After that, went to clarke quay to sign up for National Youth Achievement Award (gold). Paid $17 for it. DAMN!
will be finishing it around 2009. thats a long time. hah.
okay, and tomorrow shall be my boot camp. Character Improvement Boot Torturing Camp. I wonder what those bigger people will do. Wash own clothes, make own bed, sleep own bed, dont have my wife with me. LOL. i have a wife? wth..
ohyea, will be away for 9 days, wish me luck ppl. miss me!
*Show no fear, show no weaknesses. Fight Fight!*
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Sunday, December 2, 2007- Today is much a better day.
Tomorrow will be prom night for the graduates of Yishun Town Secondary School.
I dono if im gonna enjoy myself there. Dont even know if i will have frens to tag along with tml.
But, what i know is that i want to eat eat eat eat eat eat!! EATT!
okok, thats enough.. EEEAAATTTT!
enuf! lol
Time is seriously running out for me. i have only 3 days left till my Character Improvement Boot Torturing Camp. 9 days boot camp. Its a residential one, we needa bring our own washing kit. cool. imagine me in the toilet hand-washing the clothes. woo! okok, i did that in NPCC hong kong field trip last year, nothing to be surprised for me.
good thing, tomorrow, im meeting husna to get my camping bag back frm her at 7.20 am. good thing, after that i can exercise! woot.
yay yay. at least can do that before boot camp
*at least some encouragement is given to me. all i can say, is thank you.*
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Saturday, December 1, 2007- i wonder how things went so wrong..
i turned around and he was gone..
wheres Gary?
lol. randomness. spongebob squarepants "wheres gary" song.
ok, lets get this straight. I "imprisoned" myself in my room for around one and a half hour. just to cool myself down. was damn angry at my family again. This has been the second time i was pretty angry in a week. and you know that its rather hard for me to get "pretty angry".
then, go out, dont talk much, go eat eat lor. what else seh. wondering if i will make it to gym tomorrow. im so pathetic. it sux. lol.
*i really wonder what will happen when i have to leave for a while and stay there for some days..*
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