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Thursday, July 23, 2009- I have been observing myself lately.
It seems that I am getting weaker in terms of health, but it seems that my mentality to keep fighting for my best has been growing stronger. Yes, its true that life is getting less than kind now, but yeah, I've been motivating myself all the way. I know for myself that getting motivated in my kind of state is a very hard thing to do, but yeah, I've went this far and I can't turn back for now.
I need to remember that I am born with a gift. And this gift is the one that gives me the heart to care for all those who need it. Not to mention that the meaning of my name is "Our love" (yes, I know, look at my face and you don't see love). Somehow, I want to live up to my name, being a person who is able to care about others.
Just like a quote I like to say "my thoughts are my talent, and my heart is my gift". I am living through all this. Although I am not a great source of miracle, at least I can be sort of a catalyst to it.
I must remember, that I might be the one suffering, get spitted in the face, get hurt and be the one who struggles, but it will be a meaningful big sacrifice.
And I also know that I'm the one who's health is quite dependent on medicines, and looking at myself, I know that my self esteem is not as high that I may show to others. I know that due to my dependence to medicines, my life MIGHT be limited. But looking at what my goal is, I have to succeed in my life, and then keep giving, even if in my life, I might never be able to take a single thing.
Though I've not been showing it at all, my life have been very emotional lately. But oh well, its only worth to share it with just myself right now.
Hmm, and now, I just to keep of fighting. Just keep fighting like how I've been doing it since I was young, both mentally and physically.
This post shall be a good reminder to myself..
*Keep on going.*
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