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Wednesday, June 4, 2008- well, heres a post on why I wana be nice to others.
Other than the fact that I want to be sincere, I wanted to have a sense of belonging. What I mean is that, I keep on having a hard time trying to "belong" somewhere. Hah, and yea, can you believe it, I am a person who doesn't feel accepted? Doesn't seem like me eh?
I believed that by being a good person, people will give me a chance to be really real friends with them. But, it seems like I kept getting the opposite results. Haha, of course not ALWAYS, but it happens a lot of time. I really felt that I am in the wrong now, being very very nice and to others, being kind, trying to make people smile, I totally know that this was the cause of the opposite results. People tend to take so much that they forget that I am still another human being. I need to live with a sense of belonging, and not being treated like whole damn trash.
I am really sorry, that I felt angry at a lot of people because of this thing. It was really my fault that I gave this impression to others.
*Sometimes, you have no choice but to get rid of yourself just to prevent hurting others any further. I should be selfless.. I have no choice.*
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