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Wednesday, January 30, 2008- Well, 2 days to my birthday. 17 years old sounds old. Also, it tells me that I am getting closer and closer to National Service. Damn! i wasted my youth-hood. So idiot la.
Hmm, unlike me, a lot of the other youths are either spending their youth-hood taking things for granted, enjoying it, enjoying privileges that their family have, and bla bla bla bla, and also for some, being people hu they are not (disgustingly fake, no offence).
Hah, not to mention, being the guy hu sadly cant express his true feelings after losing the ability to because I always had to stand up for my own self, (my rights and all) since 10 years old, which always ended up as a failure. Why? What i said was not respected. No listeners around me. And no motivation given. All that was given to me those days, was from myself. Not even my family.
I could still remember when i was 11, i spent most of my time during recess alone in the hall. Noone noticed me. AND I WASNT EMOING, COZ ITS GAY AND IM DARN FINE STRAIGHT! Whenever there was success, for example in my exams or tests, people would just give personal attacks to me. Well, its immatured like DUH! and im like so matured here, ehem.
Yeah, but sadly, i did not fight back. Why? I do not want to hurt anyone. And this is a weakness of being too nice. People will begin to forget your limits and become sucked up.
hah, so, teens out there better dont take ur youthful years for granted. And, don't end up like me, unable to express my true and deeper feelings and all. What i want to say, is pretty hard to say out. Better find someone to listen to you, and help you around. Just a message so that you wont regret.
*and if i say, that the last sacrifice i will make is a sad one, will someone at least take pity for me? its quite a mystery..*
`updated on- 8:47 PM
