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Tuesday, October 30, 2007- pretty frustrated today. I ONLY NEED ANOTHER 2 FREAKING SECONDS TO GET 1 MORE PATHETIC IDIOTIC FREAK-FACE MARK FOR MY MATHS PAPER 2!! DAMMIT!! grr. oh well, its over. BURN THE E MATHS NOTES!! lol. up next is malay. revising rite now as i blog.
well. just a piece for me to say here
in this life of mine, things do change a lot. I didn't really changed much. Yea, the same guy, with 10 different characters in him. or even more. But, things always dont turn out the way it should be..
I tried too hard. i just simply did. everything that i wanted so much in my life. i tried too hard. yet, i dint do that good enough. no matter how much i try to soar, no matter how hard i tried to fly, my obstacles, my flaws, they will always be the gravity that will prevent me from going futher up.
haiz, and today. i thought of sacrificing again. This time, making my life more miserable. Im just willing to be sacrificing those years of shit and sweetness together, just for ur happiness.
Yea, i noe. every single thing in those day, which had brought colours to my all black life. (although i like the colour black). Life will mean much more less, but i simply dont care.
so what about me? what makes me so special? so important?
theres no such thing, probably never a fact that i will be that important.
Just be happy, that im really willing to do all of tis.
I dont mind being forgotten, just like how that many others have forgotten and deserted me.
yea, doesnt matter to me anymore.
*hah, I think i should think positive. at least, after i lose almost everything again, i will have nothing to lose. haha, yea.*
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