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Thursday, September 13, 2007- I dont see a point. why should i be soo known to others, when i just dont achieve so much. when i didnt prove much of myself as a person of good worth. when im actually not so much of a person.
and mostly, when i keep trying to help, but most of the time, i failed to. i dont see a point of also being known by people, when im just left out. when im ignored by the people who didnt give me the ears that i want. to be able to share my problems with. know what i mean?
Kept looking at others, seeing how lucky some are. Some people are so darn fortunate have frens, or people who they dont know who would actually give them the amount of care they needed. remembered the time when im 9. alone at home. and it was raining heavily. I looked out, and saw this small kid, and his mother. I can see so much love being shared with each other. Now u see? And teens this days, from asking politely to demanding their parents for the things that they want. Sometimes, their parents arent that rich, but they tried to understand.
Even if they have to struggle, they will try to help. I noe that this leads to spoiling of their son, or daughter, or any homosexual child(if any). But, i still can see their good intention to these children of theirs.
And about friends, i DO blame myself for this, but sometimes, im too used to being alone growing up, that i may sometimes feel like being alone. Is this a curse or something? Its.. like.. sometimes, i dont have a choice.
Like seriously, is a loner life and ability to be an excellent individual? or is it simply a curse?
PS: i may be an internal motivator, and i may love to motivate others who need it, but i am human(duh). I need a lil help, and im troubled too. AND THIS ENTRY DOESNT MAKE SENSE.
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